I'm dropping titles in a language I don't even speak until I feel like being consistent again.

I have been given the gift of knowledge without pain. I know a lot of things that I didn't have to labor to get, didn't have to live through, didn't have to bare. I've been through a lot of really good things and I have the opportunity to become so much better. I've learned self-discipline and I've learned how to keep my feeling side in check. I've learned how things work and I've learned about the world. I've learned about realms and other worlds, I've learned about what's true and false and I've learned that I don't have to be afraid of the religion I was brought up in. My family is stable, my life is within my grasp and as for bad things that directly affected me I don't remember any of them. I've worked to get better academically, physically I've started training myself, spiritually I need some work but I know what to do now.

Stepping back, looking at everything, there is far more to be grateful for than there is to complain about. I'm adopting a new perspective.

I've been given tools. I've been given insight. I've gone through next to no pain in the grand scheme of things, but enough to make me cautious and enough to prepare me. With these things I can become better and learn more and actually live. I want to live, I want to grow better, I want to be the best that I can be in this life.

For this to happen I have to realize how ignorant I am, how much I have to learn. I know I've made some steps but they're incredibly small. Now I will begin to truly learn.